endurance: weekly reflection on the universe with red jasper

image: what did we decide practice deck - universe card, red jasper die, the twins: philodendrons

 

week 1 recap - duality

but first, i'm still on duality.

oh, how we love to label ourselves (with permanent adhesives).

ok. i'll speak for me. i am a celestial being. tenacious across timelines.

otherwise known as stubborn, delusional, hard-headed, unwilling to let go, etc.

(well, maybe not stubborn)

i've been thinking more about these dueling personas: who i thought i'd become and who i am.

or more accurately, old projections that became labels that became new projections that became identities, that became limiting beliefs when i wasn't looking.

hm.

maybe they all can kick rocks. I can let them all go, with love? with love.

because maybe even who i was last week when i picked the duality card, still had some residual [   ]. 

and maybe it will be that way until I remember who I truly am. 

 

was there a fear that now at *cough*, everything is collapsing? (i.e., i'm running out of (play) time?)

...that there are no more waves?

and only dusty particles?

hm.

[insert deep breath here]

 

i truly believe that it is not the end of possibilities....that i can never really run out of those. 

🌊🌊🌊🌊🌊

really, its all enough for a nap.

 

i recall when the internet was fairly new, they told us our taste buds change every 6-7 years. now, they say they regenerate every couple of weeks! 

it makes me wonder what my perspective will be in two weeks.

because i do in fact like lima beans now.

i think this might be the practice.

hm.

(I might be thinking about this next week too. 😊)

pairing red jasper with the universe (practice: week 2)

happy sunday all.

i picked the universe card and a red jasper die. the stone of endurance.

to me, universe means, all that there is/was with no exceptions.

and because it is all that ever was and it there will ever be, it has no need to rush. it has no time to keep. time is pointless, even though it endures. (just as it is also OK to know immediately when the timing is right.)

weird.

i come back to it when i think of our egos as humans. our need for legacy and need to make an impact. 

the very specific attributions. and the paths we take, the choices we make, the boundaries we implement or ignore in order to ensure that we see the fruit.

 

i still don't know what i want to be when i grow up. see practice week - week 1 (duality).

and that's ok.

this week i was glad to be reminded that no matter what i do or don't do, there is something that endures that I can feel and will not go away when i do.